I Believe in You
(„Slow Train Coming”, 1979 Columbia)
( E E4 E E4 E )
E E4 E E4 E
They ask me how I feel and if my love is real
E A E
And how I know I'll make it through.
E E4 E E4 D
And they, they look at me and frown, they'd like to drive me from this town,
A E E4 E
They don't want me around 'cause I believe in you.
They show me to the door,
They say don't come back no more
'Cause I don't be like they'd like me to,
And I walk out on my own
A thousand miles from home
But I don't feel alone
'Cause I believe in you.
D A E
I believe in you even through the tears and the laughter,
D A E
I believe in you even though we be apart.
D A E
I believe in you even on the morning after.
A E A E A E A E
Oh, when the dawn is nearing Oh, when the night is disappearing
E A H7
Oh, this feeling is still here in my heart.
Don't let me drift too far,
Keep me where you are
Where I will always be renewed.
And that which you've given me today
Is worth more than I could pay
And no matter what they say
I believe in you.
I believe in you when winter turn to summer,
I believe in you when white turn to black,
I believe in you even though I be outnumbered.
Oh, though the earth may shake me
Oh, though my friends forsake me
Oh, even that couldn't make me go back.
Don't let me change my heart,
Keep me set apart
From all the plans they do pursue.
And I, I don't mind the pain
Don't mind the driving rain
I know I will sustain
'Cause I believe in you.
Slow Train Coming is singer-songwriter Bob Dylan's 19th studio album, released by Columbia Records in August 1979.
It was the artist's first effort since becoming a born-again Christian, and all of the songs either express his strong personal faith, or stress the importance of Christian teachings and philosophy. The evangelical nature of the record alienated many of Dylan's existing fans; at the same time, many Christians were drawn into his fan base. Slow Train Coming was listed at #16 in the 2001 book CCM Presents: The 100 Greatest Albums in Christian Music.
The album was generally well-reviewed in the secular press, and the single „Gotta Serve Somebody” became his first hit in three years, winning Dylan the Grammy for best rock vocal performance by a male in 1980. The album peaked at #2 on the charts in the UK and went platinum in the US, where it reached #3.
Conversion to Christianity
By November 1978, Dylan had received some of the worst reviews of his career. In late January, he finally premiered Renaldo and Clara, the part-fiction, part-concert film shot in the fall of 1975, during the first Rolling Thunder Revue tour. Though the performances were well-received, the overwhelming majority of reviews were negative. A number of them were so harsh, Dylan saw them as personal attacks, particularly those by The Village Voice, which printed four negative reviews by four different critics.
Though critical reception in the United Kingdom was far kinder, with some British critics proclaiming it a major work, his most recent album, Street-Legal, was also received poorly by most American critics. Charges of sexism, poor production, and even poor singing were thrown at the album.
In the meantime, Dylan's latest tour was getting its own share of negative reviews, many of which reflected the negative criticism waiting to greet the American release of Bob Dylan at Budokan, taken from performances held in early 1978.
Yet Dylan was in good spirits, according to his own account. „I was doing fine. I had come a long way in just the year we were on the road [in 1978].” This would change on November 17th in San Diego, California. As Clinton Heylin reports, „the show itself was proving to be very physically demanding, but then, he perhaps reasoned, he'd played a gig in Montreal a month earlier with a temperature of 105.”
”Towards the end of the show someone out in the crowd…knew I wasn't feeling too well,” recalled Dylan in a 1979 interview. „I think they could see that. And they threw a silver cross on the stage. Now usually I don't pick things up in front of the stage. Once in a while I do. Sometimes I don't. But I looked down at that cross. I said, 'I gotta pick that up.' So I picked up the cross and I put it in my pocket…And I brought it backstage and I brought it with me to the next town, which was out in Arizona…I was feeling even worse than I'd felt when I was in San Diego. I said, 'Well, I need something tonight.' I didn't know what it was. I was used to all kinds of things. I said, 'I need something tonight that I didn't have before.' And I looked in my pocket and I had this cross.”
Dylan believed he had experienced a vision of Christ in his Tucson hotel room. „Jesus did appear to me as King of Kings, and Lord of Lords,” he'd later say. „There was a presence in the room that couldn't have been anybody but Jesus…Jesus put his hand on me. It was a physical thing. I felt it. I felt it all over me. I felt my whole body tremble. The glory of the Lord knocked me down and picked me up.”
Heylin writes that „his state of mind may well have made him susceptible to such an experience. Lacking a sense of purpose in his personal life since the collapse of his marriage, he came to believe that, when Jesus revealed Himself, He quite literally rescued him from an early grave.”
”[Dylan's] conversion wasn't one of those things that happens when an alcoholic goes to Alcoholics Anonymous,” David Mansfield, one of Dylan's band members and fellow-born-again Christian, would later say. „The simplest explanation is that he had a very profound experience which answered certain lifelong issues for him.”
Hints of Dylan's newfound faith began to appear publicly. In the final four weeks of the tour, Dylan could be seen wearing the same silver cross that catalyzed his conversion. During performances of „Tangled Up in Blue,” lyrics were replaced with explicit references to the Bible. As Heylin writes, „Rather than having the mysterious lady in the topless bar quoting an Italian poet from the 14th century [sic], she was quoting from the Bible, initially from the Gospel According to Matthew. Gradually, though, the lines changed, until he settled upon a verse from Jeremiah - the one he would quote on the inner sleeve of the Saved album: 'Behold, the days come, sayeth the Lord, that I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel, and with the house of Judah' (Jeremiah 31:31).”
Dylan also began writing songs that would reflect his new spirituality. During soundchecks on the final two weeks of the tour, he worked on a new song called „Slow Train.” At the final show in Hollywood, Florida, he would introduce a new song to his audience: „Do Right To Me Baby (Do Unto Others).” According to Heylin, it „was the first song he had ever written around a dictum from the Bible, indeed a saying directly attributed to Jesus himself: 'All things, therefore, that you want men to do to you, you also must likewise do to them; this, in fact, is what the Law and the Prophets mean' (Matthew 7:12).”
Dylan wasn't alone in his religious awakening. Band members Steven Soles and David Mansfield had already joined the Vineyard Fellowship, a Christian organization introduced to them by T-Bone Burnett. Helena Springs, one of the singers in the band, was brought up Christian and still practiced her faith. Dylan was also romantically linked with Mary Alice Artes; raised as a Christian, she had strayed from her faith only to return to it after joining the Vineyard Fellowship (without the influence of Burnett, Soles, or Mansfield).
At one meeting with the Vineyard Fellowship, Artes approached pastor Kenn Gulliksen, seeking pastoral guidance for Dylan. Pastors Larry Myers and Paul Esmond were sent to Dylan's home where they ministered to him. As Heylin writes, „by embracing the brand of Christianity advocated by the Vineyard Fellowship, Dylan was about to become, in popular perception, just another Bible-[thumping] fundamentalist. In fact, though the Fellowship certainly shared the 'born again' precepts of more right-wing credos - believing such a change was an awakening from original sin ('Adam given the Devil reign/Because he sinned I got no choice') - it represented a more joyous baptism of faith.” As Mansfield would say, „a big part of the fellowship of that church was music.”
Under the guidance of the Vineyard Fellowship, Dylan was asked to attend a course held at the Vineyard School of Discipleship, which would run four days a week over the course of three months. „At first I said, 'There's no way I can devote three months to this,'” Dylan would say in a 1980 interview. „'I've got to be back on the road soon.' But I was sleeping one day and I just sat up in bed at seven in the morning and I was compelled to get dressed and drive over to the Bible school.”
Pastor Gulliksen would later say, „It was an intensive course studying about the life of Jesus; principles of discipleship; the Sermon on the Mount; what it is to be a believer; how to grow; how to share…but at the same time a good solid Bible-study overview type of ministry.”
As Heylin writes, „A well-read man, for whom the Bible had previously been little more than a literary source, [Dylan] now made its allegories come out in black and white.” In an interview taken in 1985, Dylan would say, „What I learned in Bible school was just…an extension of the same thing I believed in all along, but just couldn't verbalize or articulate…People who believe in the coming of the Messiah live their lives right now, as if He was here. That's my idea of it, anyway. I know people are going to say to themselves, 'What the fuck is this guy talking about?' but it's all there in black and white, the written and unwritten word. I don't have to defend this. The scriptures back me up.”
Through his Bible classes, Dylan became acquainted with „the works of Hal Lindsey, the man to whom God in his infinite wisdom had revealed the true code of Revelation,” writes Heylin. „Though no saint himself, Lindsey was closely associated with the Vineyard Church. His book, The Late Great Planet Earth (1970), became Dylan's second Bible and added an apocalyptic edge to his worldview…
”According to Lindsey, current world events had been foretold in the apocalyptic tracts of the Bible,” Heylin continued. „His basic premise, in The Late Great Planet Earth, was that the events revealed to St. John in Revelation corresponded with 20th century history, starting with the re-establishment of the Jews' homeland, Israel. By identifying Russia as Magog and Iran as Gog - the confederation responsible for instigating the final conflict, the Battle of Armageddon - Lindsey prophesied an imminent End.”
In later shows, Dylan would reflect these beliefs on stage. At one show in the fall of 1979, Dylan said, „You know we're living in the end times…The scriptures say, 'In the last days, perilous times shall be at hand. Men shall become lovers of their own selves. Blasphemous, heavy and highminded.'…Take a look at the Middle East. We're heading for a war…I told you 'The Times They Are A-Changin' ' and they did. I said the answer was 'Blowin' in the Wind' and it was. I'm telling you now Jesus is coming back, and He is! And there is no other way of salvation…Jesus is coming back to set up His kingdom in Jerusalem for a thousand years.”
As Heylin writes, „[Dylan's] belief in the imminence of the End was reflected in almost all of the songs he now found himself writing.” Dylan would later say in an interview taken in 1984, „The songs that I wrote for the Slow Train album [frightened me]…I didn't plan to write them…I didn't like writing them. I didn't want to write them.”
”Precious Angel,” „Gonna Change My Way of Thinking,” „When You Gonna Wake Up?” and „When He Returns” all „drew heavily and directly upon the Book of Revelation,” notes Heylin. „In the early months of 1979, Dylan was writing his most message-driven album in sixteen years. This time, though, the pursuit of the millennium had overtaken more sociopolitical concerns.”